vacay

I am going camping! I hope I don't get eaten by a bear or raccoon (did I spell that right?) or my sister.

Leave me love...

Something to keep you up atr night:

There is a song that has 4 f-words in it but the chorus goes like this...

Life for you, has been less than kind

So take a number, stand in line

We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt

But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

Is it bad?

hey im posting because i want to, but i dont have much to say. only the fact that i am still alive
thanks for reading. goodbye
hahaha.

The way I feel...

These past couple of weeks, I've begun to realize things about myself. All of my past posts haven't been the happiest. I am happy most of the time. The things that i'm finding out is I am terribly insecure and paranoid. I don't think to highly of myself and I kind of beat myself up emoitionally when i don't do things to my standards. I have next to no self-confidence, but I'm working on it. heh. I'm also beginning to think my feelings "lie" to me. I feel like they are soooo exaggerated, like i take it too far and make a big deal out of it when really it isn't. I don't want sympathy. Sympathy isn't the reason of this post, it isn't the reason of any of my posts. It just feels good sometimes to write things down. This song kind of relates to me. It also reminds me there are people out there who do care even when i can't see it. Thanks to those who've been there for me, you know who you are.

I walk against the crowd
I’m alone in this for now
I’m looking for some one to hold out their hand
In this lonely land
I finally reach the end
And there stands a friend
It seems I’ve been waiting so long
It’s so hard to stand strong.

I said, “Where have you been?”
And he said, “I’ve been standing right here beside you.”

These feeling have gotten the best of me
Pick me up and set me free
Even when I can’t see them
They’re with me all the way

The world is talking behind my back
I’m a loser and that’s a fact.
I’m so paranoid
Of these things I can’t avoid
All of my insecurities
My self confidence is the key
But I don’t believe in evolution
I can’t create something out of nothing

I said, “Where have you been?”
And he said, “I’ve been standing right here beside you.”

These feeling have gotten the best of me
Pick me up and set me free
Even when I can’t see them
They’re with me all the way

You are not alone
I will never leave your side

Open up my eyes
Help me to see through the lies
I’m not on my own
On this deserted road

Enjoy your 4th of July... Don't launch roman candles at your mothers.